Who I am

I am the Paladin, I am who I am not because I find it interesting or even appealing. While I seem like a nice guy there is a whole darker side that like most I keep hidden, it is that dark side that makes me the Paladin. While this might seem at odds with the meaning of the word Paladin, I shall clarify it.

I am the Paladin because I have the willpower to resist my darker side and because in doing so it drives me to view others before myself. Something that somewhat hinders my progress through life but nets me many friends. I am not someone used to asking for help because of who I am, so I struggle on until I can take no more, then I pick myself back up and do it again.

I will never change, I will never falter from who I am. I am who I am because it's who I've found myself to be, I do fit in with the norm of the modern mindset but I would have it no other way. I chose years ago, when I was 15 to do the impossible and live by the Paladin code and over the years thats changed. Or rather the code changed and evolved as I lived it, now I can not even explain it to anyone who asks about it. It is part of me and I live by my code without thought, still like anyone I am prone to mistakes. Given I am not the most flexible of people I have my limits and though I strive to overcome those limits, it can sometimes make me intolerable and a fool.

I am the Paladin and like anyone I am flawed, yet I still put the needs of others before my own.